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Thoughts and blah blahs...

Still into you…

WTF.
I said that I will forget whatever feelings I have for him, but it seems like it just got deeper. FUCK!

Just this morning i got curious about how they exchange sweet nothings on FB, but there was nothing at all. I just thought that maybe he is just being a guy, you know like being so manly that doesn’t like to do unmanly stuffs like that. But lo and behold, when I went to the girl’s profile I found out that she has a boyfriend now there in Canada ! Her relationship stat is already in married status ! And another revelation, theres a post where she said to her family that ‘finally after all she will be with her bf now’ so it sounds like they’ve been together for a long time, and thats when I was able to put the pieces together.

Probably the reason why they are not showy of their relationship is that the girl already has a bf all along and he is just a past time for her. Or maybe he doesn’t know? Or after they broke up she already dated instantly? I’m not really certain.

But whatever it is, f*ck that bitch !

She should’ve just let him go, or never tried to even be with him at all so that he had a time to look for the right one for him who wouldn’t hurt him the way that she did. They both just wasted each other time but him being so wasted at the end.

I just can’t stand why she did that. She trash the person I’ve always dreaming of. Why on earth he loved that girl, when all along I’m just here waiting for him, I could have given all the time that he wants all the love that he needs!!
But its too late now. I cannot give it to him anymore because i have already given it to someone who loves me more than I do.

Life is just so unfair, we cannot always get what we want, but at the end of the day we will know the reason why…

It Ends Tonight…

I guess that’s it.
I have given enough chances and it concluded that the theory is somewhat rejected. Tho, there are still some proofs but twas really vague.

I think all along it was really just a mistaken feelings. We just got closer because of someone who’s really the one who likes me, it was confirmed tho. So i just assumed. All along.

I guess he’s just like that, he likes getting closer and nicer to some that he viewed to prospect. And I was a victim of that deception. Girls are really so weak and tends to assume then fantasize the ‘every possibility’.

Im just a girl.

Now, to pin out the point, It’s just all for amusement. I was waiting for a closure, to know if theres ever a time when he ever likes me, if he loved me, for the sake of my sanity and peace of mind, but I guess there are really things that has to be left unsaid, because it’s either gonna hurt you badly or start the confusion in you.

So I just have to leave it all behind, and focus to the things that really matter now. I should not live forever in the past, and wait till the sun sets on my sky. I should start seeing the bright sunshine of the world I’m living in right now. I have realized that maybe the questions of the past might be answered, but I guess it won’t change anything now. He’s now part of my past, unrequited and undisclosed but One thing is known now, I have the man that I really deserved and thats an enough reason to leave all the past behind. It’s all now part of my past, and the past is never gonna comeback so I must focus on my present.

This an enough closure for me to make. It ends tonight….

Happiness at its best ! Lol. This is a one good representation of our every reunion. Exactly like this. I love you Bespren ! @gnelsielee β€οΈπŸ‘―πŸ˜Ή
Its always a good time. πŸ’ƒπŸŽ‰πŸΈ
New York Cheesecake. πŸ°πŸ˜‹πŸ˜
Ain’t it fun living in a real world ? #spotify #paramore
To chop or not to chop? Wanting a bangs for a change. Lol. #selfie #bangs #help #lol 😢😐😬
Cinnamon is ❀️❀️❀️
Can’t stop watching this, It has 4.7m views and I think a thousand view is from me ! HAHA seriously, my brothers are getting sick of me for keep playing and watching it again and again hahaha and no I don’t sing while watching it because I’m way too blown away and amazed by both of them, specialy @zoraxlove64 ! The BEST PERFORMANCE EVEEEER !! #christinagrimmie #thevoice #sambehymer #countingstars

“I’ve had a lot of worries in my life, most of which never happened.”

—   Mark Twain (via wandering-and-sunshine)

(Source: psych-quotes, via steadyandfree)

ggoing:

do you ever FEEL yourself being annoying but you CAN’T stop

(via asdfghjkllove)

With Every Beat It Aches…

Someone please take me away from here πŸ˜”πŸ˜”πŸ˜”

Yes, I love him. The only person who can tolerate me when I’m being such a girl. The only one who stayed even at my worst. Who never gave up on me. And the only one who, after all the bad things I have done, still looks at me as if I’m perfect. He did all of that without a single complain. Im just amazed by you my love. β€οΈπŸ˜˜πŸ’ #love #23daystogo #psyched 😊😊😊
Exactly.
I guess, thats why it never work out with other guys, because you’re just the one for me. Both of us are waiting for the wrong person back then, they have their own relationships and we keep forcing our way to their life and heart. Its not our fault though because they keep giving us false hopes, and so we keep fighting, waiting, and hoping. We are the two broken hearted Idiots who find ourselves falling for each other. Its scary at first knowing that we are both just hungry foolish but we tried, and here we are nearing our third year anniversary still in love and still can’t get enough of each other. Si I guess, all the pain of the past seems all worth it, for without it, I don’t know if I will ever met this heartbroken idiot….that I love. :’) #ourlovestory #lol