Someone please take me away from here 😔😔😔
do you ever type a long rant and then at the end of it you select all of it and delete it because no one cares
Guess I’ve had a dosage of my own medicine. I’ve been serve, and i totally deserved that.
I’m an evil child, I only want whats the best FOR ME, i never thought of other people’s sakes. I’m so selfish. I also have this habit of celebrating other people’s failure. Yes, I’m a bitch. The bad one.
Im insecure and envious of everything, i never learn how to be contented. People see me as this kind and nice girl, but honestly they are looking at me in a different perspective. I have horns and red bloodshot eyes. I hate losing, and i hate seeing other people’s victory and happiness. I’m the wicked witch of the far far away kingdom. The villain in the Love story of the lovers. The antagonist in every protagonist’s life story. Yes that’s how evil I am. I won’t deny, i hate seeing other people going ahead of me. I hate seeing them happy. I hate their victory. I dont know what gotten into me, but that’s what i really feel.
Because of that attitude, i never win in anything.
I’m hating too much. Im so insecure. I always envy others. Im always comparing.
I said i hate plastic people, but here i am talking behind the back of some people who’s calling me a friend :(
Im becoming the person I said i will never be.
So now, because of those things Im left with nothing.
Im not happy, im depress, im upset, im stressed, and all the things i ever wanted ended up on someone else’s hands.
I gotta do something about myslef, specially my attitude, so it will change my life as well. Its never healthy to be insecure and envious all the time. I should start see just the good things in everything and start to accept who I am, to be contented with what i have and what i can do.
If there are things i need to improve it is my way of thinking. I should start cleaning and clearing my mind. Gotta cleanse my soul and being. Gotta stop over thinking things that led me to unpleasant thoughts. Oh God help me, just a bit of your touch can heal me.
Hopeful to change for the better. 🙏🙏🙏